Want to write some more...

5 minutes ago, I uploaded my first post of the day. But I have 1 more thing to write about: just four days and my mom will be 13000 km away from me.

I am sad all day, every day. Just can't control my emotions. SHITTTTT MAN! WHAT THE HELL...the next 6 months are going to be...I don't know what. Last semester, I could at least come back on weekends to see her. Now, I feel I've been 'orphaned' for 6 months. Although my brother and bhabhi will take good care of me but I won't feel like coming to Houston anymore. I can live without anybody, anything in this world. I can fight any situation without complain with grit but I can't live away from mom.

Yes, the last post said this too: We Cancerians are very tough on the outside but we have a swirling emotional tornado within us if we are depressed. More so in my case because I have got only my mom's love almost all my life - dad left when I was 7, brother left when I was 14. The time when one actually enters the outside world and learn a million things everyday is after school. And that's when I only had my mom with me, to teach me, to guide me, to love me.

But now, I will have to go through, live through all this. That's because I have chosen this path of mine. I just hope time flies by until mom returns...