Hair-raising effort!

Since my high school days, I've been religiously going to the barber shop every month to trim my hair n keep it short. When I used to do that until last month, many people used to say "Why dont you have a haircut?" right within a couple of days of me doin the same! Now last month I decided to change my hairstyle for the 1st time in my life; was bored keeping the old one for 22 years (it looked kinda schoolboy cut).
I thought of going for the long hair look and keepin' de'm groomed backwards. So i didn't go to the salon and somewhat just changed the direction of the hair partition to center. And bingo! Next day, people said "So...went for a haircut huun?" I was perplexed...When I used to get my hair trimmed, it wasnt noticed and when I didn't, just my change of style evoked a 180 degress response! Hehehe...anyway I'm just lovin this new look and am waiting for my hair to grow long enough, wanna surprise people who haven't seen me since a long long time!

That day's comin soon...

The week before last, I saw an awesome e-mail lying in my inbox - TAMU gives me an admit! yeehooo.......... and last week, there was an even better e-mail from the same sender.....guess wat guess wat?????
A Graduate Assistanceship for 2 sems! Which literally translates to almost no fees for 1 year of my studies. For the 2nd year, it can be extended. Plus I shall be getting 670USD/month as salary. Now that's what we call in Hindi "Sone Pe Suhaaga".
As it is, Texas is damn cheap for students (fees,rentals n stuff). Now with this funding, I'm almost certain of sending them my confirmation.But I'm still waiting for reply from UT Austin which is obviously much better than TAMU. lesse what happens...

Honestly, I just dont realize how time is speeding by. Each weekday goes & I just dont get time to think over the virtually 'new birth' that I'll be taking in a couple of months. And when the weekend comes, my heart sinks down with the thought of it. My lovely home, awesome frnz, things that I do for TP, my city, country....oh crap! I just hope this phase passes by smoothly.
Somehow I have started realizing that in the long run, I'm not the kinda person who works for some firm. I'm just getting the feeling of starting up something on my own back here. It's just a thought, nothing concrete yet.

Someday, I'll be sitting in the garage, working on some novel concept, which will revolutionize the way the world lives (just like Larry Page n Sergie Brin)!

What the elders said was true...

In everybody's life, there have been times when their elders have wisely said "Dear, this world is too selfish and as you grow up, you will find that all people around you always wear a mask on their faces, covering their true selves.
You have to be very careful and intelligent enough to find out the gems among the rocks. And in no time you will realize that your circle of true friends and selfless people starts dwindling or stagnates. Everybody is solely interested in personal motives."

And as I slowly move up the corporate ladder, this piece of wisdom, which I used to think was not worth remembering when I was young, bites me with an alarming frequency. Nobody cares for you there. I sometimes think that I should be my natural self no matter what.
But I just can't be. I have to follow the herd coz if I don't, I stumble very often.

When I travel in the company bus everyday, I realize that the journey become very lonely if you are WHAT YOU ARE...If you act crap and be boisterously professional,even then people will just approach you if they need something from you. MORAL of the story: Never ever trust anybody and assume things instinctively, coz if you fall from the cliff, the descent is too painful.

But I am happy that I have got that rational mind which I polish daily and try my best to draw the line between my true self and my camouflage. I dont want them to overlap.

I hope that at least those few people who I really feel are honest and true, and those who I like and trust 100%, stay the same always, and never ever approach me wearing a cloak!